Life

Life only sucks when you want it to, until then live life to the extreme and enjoy it while it last!

Rebrith

Everyday we live in a place we people kill other people, everyday an old one dies, and everyday we go on! Everyday people go from work to home, and then we sleep, but then while i sleep i think of everyone that dies, then i wake up and think, what if with every spirit that leave the bodies of those that dies, do they find another to live in??? Because everyday an new life is born and those who have died could they just moved to another body just like moving for home to home? You chose to believe, what your thoughts????

Feets

These are my stump of my body, they always support me,

I flow them, because they always lead me the right way,

They protect me, from people try to hurt me,

They take me wherever, whenever,

They are my stump, leader, and protector.

For my feet flow my fate.

Fate Conspiring

Let two bodies entertiwn,
Go wherever you want to go,
Let your heart have whatever you desirer,
Life is a playground, make the best out of it,
Because fate is conspiring!

F.I.N.D.

From day to day, I go to work,
From day to day, I see my friends,
From day to day, I think
From day to day, I wonder???...
I wonder if i will ever meet someone,
I wonder if they are for me,
I wonder will they be true to me,
I wonder if I will live tomorrow,
Need to live,
Need to fight for what is right,
Need to smile when i am hurting inside,
Need to be me,
Day to day, I live,
Day to day, I cry,
Day to day, I hurt,
Day to day, I love someone forever,
F.I.N.D.

Confessions of a Lonely Heart....

I stand outside in the rain screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need you the most?

I stand outside in the with the wing blowing through me screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need you to hold me?

I stand outside, as the sun melt me away, screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need a shoulder to cry on?

I stand outside during the pouring rain, the gusty winds, and the dead heat of the sun, and every time I scream your name,

But where are you, I am alone.

I sit outside looking at everyone with their love of there life,

But I sit there alone, still wondering where you are?

Why Have you not come when I scream your name?

Why have you not come when I cried your name?

Why have you not come, when I send for you?

I walk down a path full of nothing it is just me and my shadow,

All I ask is you to be there for me, and your shadow, during a time of need!

I sit outside, during the day, not screaming your name,

Still no sign of you, and i sit alone!

These are confessions of a lonely heart....

In The Corner

I walk into a party,
I walk into people i know and people I don't
I start chatting with people,
Finally I make it to the fridge to grab a beer.
I get and turn around, there you are in the corner alone.
I go back into the fridge and grab another.
I walk towards you, you look bored.
I say, "What's up?"
And you respond with a smile and quitely say, "Hi."
Then I hand you a beer and we talk,
Eventually we make it outside alone and just talk!
We talk about everything, life, relationship, and heartache.
Four Hours has pass and it is time for me to leave.
You walk me to my car and give me a kiss goodnight.
And all I did was found you in the corner.

Posion of Choice...

I sip on this cup of life, and it has a bitter taste,
But I do not care, this taste so devine.
But then I feel a change through my body,
It hurts, It is a grand pain, and it flows through me from head to toe.
Then there is a note on the table where I grab the cup from,
It says, "The substance in the drink will destory you for all enternity."
I then grab my stomach, as I feel my enternals feel like they are rip out of me,
Why was I foolish to drink the cup before I read the note,
Now I live with this pain, even though I can bare it for the most part,
But it still will rupture into a horrific pain.
This substance I took, is internally that injurious to my health and dangerous to my life.
I have impregnated myself with this herb,
I have tainted my body forever,
But I still have the note that was there that day by the cup, and I look at it,
It is my own writing, my own warning.
This poison in my body was of my own druther.
My poison of choice... affections

What is your poison of choice???

A Book...

I write page after page, my life is nothing more then average,
Everyday I put a new chapter in my book,
Every hour I put a new page in my book,
Every minute is a new paragraph,
Every second is a new sentence.
My life is like abook,
The pages keep feeling up, and I am still not done with my book.
For I am only on th 20th chapter, and hope I got 60 more to go.
For I hope I live and long life, just like my grandfather!
He finally finished his alittle over a year ago.
He has been gone, but not forgotten and that is what I want!
I want to be just like my grandfather, a happy, honry old man!
Because I want at the end of my book to say,
"My best friend, my love, my soul mate, hold my hand as I took my last breathe, smelt their scent for the lat time, and recieve my last kiss from them saying goodbye, but not forever."
My life is a book....

Looking through my eyes....

Looking through my eyes, what would you know, Nothing!
You think I am depress, but I am not!
A lot is going on in my life that I am falling into this never ending forest,
The forest is full of hate, lies, and pain!
It may look peaceful, but it is full of evil!
I am just waiting for someone to save me, but they never come.
Why do people leave me in this forest,
Must I have done something that wrong to be treated like this,
Help is all I ask, but no one listen it feels like,
If feel like they cannot help me, and I know to help myself,
But I am at a dead end,
I must I feel this way, I cannot never find love,
I always am passing up great people becasue I am afriad of being hurt,
Why wont anyone tell me how they feel for once,
Do you like me or see me as more, That all I want to know,
I cry here screaming to no one, because no is here!
I feel like I am drowning, in to everyones pains, because I care,
I care about them so much I put my heart out there to help them and make them feel safe,
Biut why do I always feel unsafe when I am always protecting my love ones,
I feel like I am left out in this forest while it is down pouring,
It is flooding and I am drowning, but I don`t struggle to get out,
I leave myself there to drown, becuase I have no one to help,
No one to love me more then just a friend!
Everyone just let me drown here, and then Let my body wash up on shore,
For no one to recognize, to not even care about,
I know you all care about me, but you all have to someone there to hold you at night,
You all have someone to go cry on their shoulder,
You all have a way out of this forest,
But still I wil be stuck here all alone,
Looking through my own eyes,
Because no one will look through mine truely to see my hurt I have,
That grows inside of me like cancer,
Let me drown in this forest full of rain!
Let me never be remember,
Let me go on into oblivion,
I no one to love me the way I was once loved before.
Cannot say you know what I am going through until you have seen it through my eyes,
Which you`ll never will becasue they are my eyes
I don`t mean to so mean,
but I love you all!
But let me be me, and let me go into oblivion.
Becasue I found whom I have been looking for there,
He treats me good, he know what I have been through
And he seen what I have seen,
This person is me!!
I love like I love no one else,
Even my first love, who rip^heart heart from my chest and feed it to the salvage wolves!
I feel like I never find love like again!
I don`t think I will!
Let me drown now, for I am done...
Let me look through my eyes for the last time....

Thinking of Emptiness

I lay still in my bed,

Wondering, waiting, thinking,

Amazing things are happening,

Life is amazing, for me

But, I still feel like I am missing something in my life,

It is not family, they love,

It is not friends, I have all the ones I could ever wish for,

It is not a good job, because I already have it,

It is life in the fast lane, because I go as fast as I can go everyday,

I sit there and think what could I be missing, I have everything I could ever want!

But still a little emptiness in me lingers there,

Not know what it is,

Still laying there still, and it already half of the night gone,

Nothing stil don't jump out at me and let me know what is not there,

Thinking to me is a horrible thing, but at same time it a lovely feeling.

Now the sun is coming up, and then I realize it, what it is,

It has been sitting there in my face the whole time,

I could kick myself for not thinking of it,

Why didn't I realize this is what I feel empty for...

It is you....

It take a game over, to start over...

Life has been many game overs,

But I feel like I had my last game over,

I have recieve a start over, and I don't feel like it will end up as a game over,

I have my friends, family, new addation to the family (my neice Liberty),

I feel like I have infiniti lives and I will keep fighting through each level of life, and beating the boss man.

I can say finally in life I achieve everything I wanted in life.

I can say I am finally happy with my life....

Game On.....

Taking control

Life is sprialing out of control,

I have so much going on, but don't know what to do????

My friends and family I know you're here,

But in this spin I am alone,

But fear not,

I am starting to take control.

It takes time for me to grasp this life I have and take control,

I know I have hurt in people eyes,

But all I can do is take what I have and learn.

I am trying to take control.

Just let me spread my wings and go....

Moonstrucked

Life is a crazy thing,

I see people fall, and other are picking themselves up.

I am not be good with words, but I know I can achieve more then some sitting doing nothing with their life,

Because I have something that they probably will never have,

Family,

Friends,

Love,

I can't say the feeling that has come over me but it is wonderful!!!

For the one who says shorty, just love me,

For the one that say, Baby to her love,

For the one who says, no matter what I'll take care of you when you are sick!

And for the one that always loves, since the day I was given this life that I almost didn't have.

I thank you, not matter how long I have know you I know you all have been there for!

I can't say thank you enough, but just that not matter what happens, I will always be with you!

Love you into the dark misty sky, where the star shine bright, and the moon is shinning down apond us with it's gleam.

I know by looking at the moon I know you are looking at it too!!

I fight....

I Fight to see,
I Fight to walk,
I Fight to speak,
I Fight to touch,
I Fight to breath,
I Fight for my heart to breath love,
But no one has yet to cut the string wrap around my heart.
For there is a soul that I want, but know I cant have,
This I must push away, because I know this soul cannot be the one,
But something still tells me that it is,
This is why I must fight,
I Fight to see, the one I want,
I Fight to walk, hold this his hand,
I Fight to speak, soft nothing into his ears,
I Fight to breath, while lying with him,
I fight for him to cut the string that strangles my heart.....

Ribbon

I see a ribbion,
Black, silk, amd absolutly beautiful,
It is prefect!
I take this abosultly beautiful black ribbon,
I open my chest peice to my heart,
I take my heart out and hold it,
It is beating with every moment,
I take this beautiful black ribbon,
and start wrapping my heart with it,
I want to wrap it so tight, that it doesn't beat with every moment,
Doesnt beat fast.
Doesnt beat slow,
I just want it to stop!
As I hold my heart,
I wrapped it so tight,
That it doesnt even beat with every moment,
Beat fast,
Or beat slow,
It doesn't do anything.....
This beautiful black ribbon,
Helps stop the pain,
Feeling,
Hate,
And...Love....

Peace

Life is nothing but a playground,

why sit around and wait for something to come???

Living life is all we can do as human,

so why wait for someting to come your way???

I breathe, I love, I hate, I live.

You are probably wondering why I am just rambling on about life???

Because I realize last night, all I got to do is live.

And that I can be a enjoyful person,

Or a heartless asshole,

It doesn't matter to me because I am not living for you!

Peace....

A Poem by a Navy Man

A long time has passed;
My world has taken change
To a cell-ship mission
With freedom out of range.
The minutes seem unreal;
The days a forgotten time
Alone upon the purple waves,
Alone my cause sublimed.
Yes, they'd changed my soul
And mutated my goal,
And I now walk alone,
To sit in sorrow;
To weep no morrow
To toss on Neptune's throne.
One after another
The purple waves and white
Toss the ship, twist &tip
The sterett in the night.


To my father, the Navy man....

I look....

I look at the sky and see your beautiful eyes
I look at the field of wheat and see your beautiful long flowing hair
I look at the sun and see the warmth of your heart
I look at a feather and I feel the softness of your touch
I look at the stars and see your beautiful shinning smile
I look out over the ocean and see the depth of your soul
For all I have to do is look around and I can see you anywhere
For your body is gone but your spirit surrounds us
For my dear friend you are our graudian angel
I know to look to the heavens and you are looking back.

it is time....

My, havent we come far? Far enough that u have been taken from. I know it was written in the schem of life, but i dont want u to go. With u leaving i fell that i am not whole... But i know its time for u to go. And u reminded me that your physically gone, but spirit ur is here....

Life Path

For everyday I walk the life path as do others. I walk pass people and I walk up to people. I have meant you, talk to you, passionate with you, care for you, and eventually hurt by you. You will never know who I am and you are as one. I may never understand maybe I will, that is the path of life that we walk. I will still be walking mine and climb the mountain head and never look back on regret or sorrow. But will you? Will you actually take that step to move head and climb that mountain with me? We will never know unless you try, take my hand and do it together. But it takes you to move your legs out of the quicksand of depression and hatefulness and go. What you have said and done to me, it does not reflect the person I am and what you are going through does not reflect you as a person either. I pray for you to open your eyes and join me, for we can still be hand and hand and be there for each other to through what life has planned out for the both of us. Just think, just smell, and just live.... Because you will lose the most precious thing to you, life.....