Fate Conspiring

Let two bodies entertiwn,
Go wherever you want to go,
Let your heart have whatever you desirer,
Life is a playground, make the best out of it,
Because fate is conspiring!

F.I.N.D.

From day to day, I go to work,
From day to day, I see my friends,
From day to day, I think
From day to day, I wonder???...
I wonder if i will ever meet someone,
I wonder if they are for me,
I wonder will they be true to me,
I wonder if I will live tomorrow,
Need to live,
Need to fight for what is right,
Need to smile when i am hurting inside,
Need to be me,
Day to day, I live,
Day to day, I cry,
Day to day, I hurt,
Day to day, I love someone forever,
F.I.N.D.

Confessions of a Lonely Heart....

I stand outside in the rain screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need you the most?

I stand outside in the with the wing blowing through me screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need you to hold me?

I stand outside, as the sun melt me away, screaming your name,

But where are you, when I need a shoulder to cry on?

I stand outside during the pouring rain, the gusty winds, and the dead heat of the sun, and every time I scream your name,

But where are you, I am alone.

I sit outside looking at everyone with their love of there life,

But I sit there alone, still wondering where you are?

Why Have you not come when I scream your name?

Why have you not come when I cried your name?

Why have you not come, when I send for you?

I walk down a path full of nothing it is just me and my shadow,

All I ask is you to be there for me, and your shadow, during a time of need!

I sit outside, during the day, not screaming your name,

Still no sign of you, and i sit alone!

These are confessions of a lonely heart....

In The Corner

I walk into a party,
I walk into people i know and people I don't
I start chatting with people,
Finally I make it to the fridge to grab a beer.
I get and turn around, there you are in the corner alone.
I go back into the fridge and grab another.
I walk towards you, you look bored.
I say, "What's up?"
And you respond with a smile and quitely say, "Hi."
Then I hand you a beer and we talk,
Eventually we make it outside alone and just talk!
We talk about everything, life, relationship, and heartache.
Four Hours has pass and it is time for me to leave.
You walk me to my car and give me a kiss goodnight.
And all I did was found you in the corner.

Posion of Choice...

I sip on this cup of life, and it has a bitter taste,
But I do not care, this taste so devine.
But then I feel a change through my body,
It hurts, It is a grand pain, and it flows through me from head to toe.
Then there is a note on the table where I grab the cup from,
It says, "The substance in the drink will destory you for all enternity."
I then grab my stomach, as I feel my enternals feel like they are rip out of me,
Why was I foolish to drink the cup before I read the note,
Now I live with this pain, even though I can bare it for the most part,
But it still will rupture into a horrific pain.
This substance I took, is internally that injurious to my health and dangerous to my life.
I have impregnated myself with this herb,
I have tainted my body forever,
But I still have the note that was there that day by the cup, and I look at it,
It is my own writing, my own warning.
This poison in my body was of my own druther.
My poison of choice... affections

What is your poison of choice???

A Book...

I write page after page, my life is nothing more then average,
Everyday I put a new chapter in my book,
Every hour I put a new page in my book,
Every minute is a new paragraph,
Every second is a new sentence.
My life is like abook,
The pages keep feeling up, and I am still not done with my book.
For I am only on th 20th chapter, and hope I got 60 more to go.
For I hope I live and long life, just like my grandfather!
He finally finished his alittle over a year ago.
He has been gone, but not forgotten and that is what I want!
I want to be just like my grandfather, a happy, honry old man!
Because I want at the end of my book to say,
"My best friend, my love, my soul mate, hold my hand as I took my last breathe, smelt their scent for the lat time, and recieve my last kiss from them saying goodbye, but not forever."
My life is a book....

Looking through my eyes....

Looking through my eyes, what would you know, Nothing!
You think I am depress, but I am not!
A lot is going on in my life that I am falling into this never ending forest,
The forest is full of hate, lies, and pain!
It may look peaceful, but it is full of evil!
I am just waiting for someone to save me, but they never come.
Why do people leave me in this forest,
Must I have done something that wrong to be treated like this,
Help is all I ask, but no one listen it feels like,
If feel like they cannot help me, and I know to help myself,
But I am at a dead end,
I must I feel this way, I cannot never find love,
I always am passing up great people becasue I am afriad of being hurt,
Why wont anyone tell me how they feel for once,
Do you like me or see me as more, That all I want to know,
I cry here screaming to no one, because no is here!
I feel like I am drowning, in to everyones pains, because I care,
I care about them so much I put my heart out there to help them and make them feel safe,
Biut why do I always feel unsafe when I am always protecting my love ones,
I feel like I am left out in this forest while it is down pouring,
It is flooding and I am drowning, but I don`t struggle to get out,
I leave myself there to drown, becuase I have no one to help,
No one to love me more then just a friend!
Everyone just let me drown here, and then Let my body wash up on shore,
For no one to recognize, to not even care about,
I know you all care about me, but you all have to someone there to hold you at night,
You all have someone to go cry on their shoulder,
You all have a way out of this forest,
But still I wil be stuck here all alone,
Looking through my own eyes,
Because no one will look through mine truely to see my hurt I have,
That grows inside of me like cancer,
Let me drown in this forest full of rain!
Let me never be remember,
Let me go on into oblivion,
I no one to love me the way I was once loved before.
Cannot say you know what I am going through until you have seen it through my eyes,
Which you`ll never will becasue they are my eyes
I don`t mean to so mean,
but I love you all!
But let me be me, and let me go into oblivion.
Becasue I found whom I have been looking for there,
He treats me good, he know what I have been through
And he seen what I have seen,
This person is me!!
I love like I love no one else,
Even my first love, who rip^heart heart from my chest and feed it to the salvage wolves!
I feel like I never find love like again!
I don`t think I will!
Let me drown now, for I am done...
Let me look through my eyes for the last time....